misery.

I don't know what happened. It was perfect, it was good, it was 100% fine, and now it's downhill.
I don't understand what's going on, I don't understand what he's trying to tell me. I don't understand him anymore. I'm losing him.
It's unfair, it's confusing. I feel like I'm always the one being pushed aside and underestimated. No, I'm not the funny one, I'm not the hot one either. But I'm the one, and he knows it.
I guess I just acted selfish. My selfishness complimented his ignorance, I guess. I'm not really sure anymore. I try to put a smile on my face, and it's there, for that 10 minutes. Then it runs away, and he sits in the middle, and I'm on the side. Alone. Taken for granted. Upset.
That made me feel horrible, my heart sank as he moved to my right. It felt like he didn't care.
I cried it all out, but it's still not enough.
It's 10 minutes of bliss to a night of misery.