2011

I haven't blogged in a while. I'm sorrry. the truth is, I've been waiting for this. I wanted to make sure that I knew exactly what I wanted to say. and maybe I still don't know what to say. but I know that one day I'll know how to end the year, I'll know what to say, I'll know who the care about, I'll know who cares about me, and I'll know where my life is going. so, today, the last day of the year, I don't know anything. but that's okay. imperfection is beauty, and not knowing always leads into the answer when you least expect it. sometimes we don't even realize it. at midnight, I'll remember the times I was lost, and know that soon, they'll be times that I know I was actually, found.

I never thought I'd feel so used. I thought he was something that he's not. I guess I just closed my eyes for too long and somewhere along the line, I lost him.